Well, it’s near the end of 2022 and I just came back from a journey so I have a lot of free time now. A lot happened this year and I am going to list/remember by month

  • January: I came back from HK November last year and I moved to Chaohu, a rural area of Hefei, where I can enjoy the scenery of mountains, hills, and lakes despite sacrificing the convenience of living in a big city. It reminds me of being in Europe.
  • Febuary: I don’t remember much happened, but I think my father took me to a head professor of mathematics department in USTC (one of best universities in China) to consult about my career path and whether I can find a job under his guidance. The professor has a lot of students starting companies in the city etc. But it turns out my own planning is quite solid and the professor also agrees with my plan, the only problem for me is that my parents think I wasting too much time on find the “perfect” topic and delaying my entrance to PhD. I agree this point to a certain context, but in reality, I didn’t prepare GRE and TOEFL so I don’t think I am able to apply, besides as I am interested in blockchain technology, I still don’t see a bright future with the topic as I suppose the most successful application is still bitcoin and it’s still about making money/gain profits. The future is not clear. So I am hesistating to make any real differences.
  • March: My father drived me to Weifang, Shandong to take my guitars. I have contacted with the factory boss and some friends because I have previously sent a lot of materials to the friend’s places. Also I custom ordered several guitars. Visiting the factory is quite interesting and not that convenient as the zero-coivd policy is still in place in most part of China and if I didn’t register before I won’t be able to visit the factory as in Spring Festive time. But luckily I am able to successfully visit the factory and retrieve most of my guitars. The boss is also nice and shrewd. I got him some more orders as well. When I came back, I also re-painted one of my guitars and send back to the factory, however the result is not as good as I thought. Besides, I also participated in the Great Guitar Build Off (GGBO2022). However, as life took a turn I didn’t finish any of my planned projects/videos. I got some dms about work opportunities from Hong Kong. To be honest, I didn’t expect any of those job opportunities to pan out because I had just had a terrible experience with a boss and was also trying to stick with the idea of applying to postgraduate schools. However, life is a box of chocolate and I happen to know a very good HR and a very good work opportunity. Although I was initially casual about the job invitations, I ended up talking to various companies and doing several interviews. As a result, I landed a job with a somewhat decent salary and the ability to work remotely.
  • April: I started working and encountered some challenges as a beginner in rust programming. However, I quickly gained hands-on experience and began completing tasks. And I started to finish some tasks.
  • May: As I become more familiar with my work, I am able to complete tasks in a shorter period of time. I think I paid off all my debt from HK and I started to have savings. I also tried to reclaim some of my crytos but someone I am still lazy to make a real change on the investing strategy.
  • June: Although I didn’t remeber much from June but I checked the records and found I was deleted by someone, it was such a shock. I was a bit confused and angry but I also think I might be too pushy or too judgemental. I always had the choice to live in Europe or America, but someone who has never been abroad may not understand why foreign countries could be viewed as a trap.
  • July-August: I bought my mother a new Xiaomi 13 Pro smartphone as a Mother’s Day present. It was really hot during summer time, I remember my parents visiting me, checked on my new laser-print machine. I am also trying to lose some weights but not really determined.
  • September: Bought XBOX gaming devices & new redmi pro notebook as there are some web3 events in Dali and I want to participate but my parents fear that I will get quarantine and they refused me to go. Also I really hate the daily coivd testing policy in China when you moves to a new place. I do not need to do coivd testing while I am staying where I am. (which turns out to be a bubble). And I still regret not going to the event since I can only regret the things I did not do. Maybe I miss the next big thing in crypto. I can go there another time but it will never be the same. So I really learned a lesson is that to try new things and meet new people, don’t be afraid of the government and I should make my own decisions not by anyone else. (In reality I am still struggling)
  • Ocotober: I need to do coivd testing basically every day because my parents fear the government will pose a more strict rule and there are several positive cases in my area and traffic control already took place for 1-2 weeks.
  • November: Just doing my jobs, spent a lot of time playing Overwatch 2.
  • December: China lifted zero-coivd policy, the place turns to be chaotic. My parents are both positive. I still live alone at the countryside. The gal deleted on June added me back, I was quite suprise to learn the change on her side. We chatted and I decided to go visit her. My first sex experience with another being turns out to be a mess. Low on sugar/shocked/etc makes me couldn’t focus and I went panic. The gal left overnight but decied to leave for good. At the moment I decied to re-gain my fittness and confidence. Finish those I should have done 3 years ago.

What to expect in 2023

  1. fitness (physical & mental)
    • keep weight under 75kg
    • re-gain muscles
    • read books & talk to new poeple
    • keep my Tinder profile alive
  2. GRE & TOEFL (& CFA if I still have time)
  3. application to graduate school
  4. move back to Finland (or Europe at least)
  5. application for HK talent plans
  6. keep practicing guitar solo & rhythm (I think I should be able to perform kfir oachion’s songs)
  7. learn some music production

嗯，2022年快结束了，我刚旅行回来，现在有很多空闲时间。今年发生了很多事，我打算按月份列一下、回忆一下

  • 一月：我去年11月从香港回来，搬到了巢湖，合肥的一个乡下地方。虽然牺牲了住在大城市的便利，但可以欣赏山、丘陵和湖泊的风景。这让我想起了在欧洲的日子。
  • 二月：我不太记得发生了什么，但我想我爸带我去见了中科大（中国最好的大学之一）数学系的一位系主任教授，咨询我的职业规划，以及能不能在他的指导下找份工作。这位教授有很多学生在这座城市创业之类的。但结果是我自己的规划相当扎实，教授也认同我的计划。对我来说唯一的问题是，我父母觉得我在找“完美”的课题上浪费了太多时间，推迟了读博的时间。某种程度上我同意这一点，但现实是我没有准备GRE和托福，所以我觉得自己申请不了。另外，虽然我对区块链技术感兴趣，但我依然看不到这个方向的光明前景，我觉得最成功的应用仍然是比特币，而它说到底还是为了赚钱/获利。未来并不明朗。所以我一直犹豫着，没有做出任何真正的改变。
  • 三月：我爸开车送我去山东潍坊取我的吉他。我联系了工厂老板和一些朋友，因为我之前往朋友那里寄了很多材料。我还定制了几把吉他。参观工厂很有意思，但也不太方便，因为当时中国大部分地区还在执行动态清零政策，而且正值春节期间，如果我没有提前登记的话就没法进工厂。不过幸运的是，我成功参观了工厂，取回了大部分吉他。老板人也很好，很精明。我还帮他拉了一些订单。回来以后，我还重新喷漆了一把吉他，又寄回了工厂，但效果没有我想象的那么好。此外，我还参加了Great Guitar Build Off (GGBO2022)。不过因为生活发生了变化，我计划中的项目/视频一个也没完成。我收到了一些来自香港的工作机会私信。说实话，我没指望这些工作机会能成，因为我刚和一个老板有过一段很糟糕的经历，而且我也在努力坚持申请研究生的想法。然而，人生就像一盒巧克力，我碰巧认识了一位很好的HR，遇到了一个很好的工作机会。虽然一开始我对这些工作邀请不怎么上心，但最后我和好几家公司聊了，参加了好几次面试。结果，我拿到了一份薪水还算不错、而且可以远程办公的工作。
  • 四月：我开始工作了，作为rust编程的新手遇到了一些挑战。不过我很快积累了实战经验，开始完成任务。我也开始完成一些任务了。
  • 五月：随着我对工作越来越熟悉，我能在更短的时间内完成任务。我想我还清了在香港欠下的所有债务，开始有了积蓄。我也试着收回了一些加密货币，但我还是懒得在投资策略上做真正的改变。
  • 六月：虽然我不太记得六月发生了什么，但我翻了翻记录，发现我被某人删了，这对我打击很大。我有点困惑，也有点生气，但我也觉得自己可能太强势或者太爱评判别人了。我一直都有选择去欧洲或美国生活的机会，但一个从没出过国的人可能无法理解为什么国外会被看作一个陷阱。
  • 七月至八月：我给我妈买了一部新的小米13 Pro手机作为母亲节礼物。夏天真的很热，我记得我父母来看我，看了看我新买的激光打印机。我也在试着减肥，但并没有真正下定决心。
  • 九月：买了XBOX游戏设备和新的红米Pro笔记本，因为大理有一些web3活动，我想去参加，但我父母担心我会被隔离，不让我去。而且我真的很讨厌中国那种一搬到新地方就要每天做核酸的政策。只要我待在原地，就不需要做核酸。（后来证明这只是个泡泡。）我到现在还后悔没去那次活动，因为人只会后悔自己没做过的事。也许我错过了加密领域的下一个大机会。我可以以后再去，但永远不会是同样的感觉了。所以我真正学到的教训是：要去尝试新事物，认识新的人，不要害怕政府，要自己做决定，而不是让别人替我做决定。（现实中我还在挣扎）
  • 十月：我基本上每天都要做核酸，因为我父母担心政府会出台更严格的规定，而且我所在的区域出现了几个阳性病例，交通管制已经持续了一两周。
  • 十一月：就是做做工作，花了很多时间玩《守望先锋2》。
  • 十二月：中国放开了动态清零政策，这里变得一片混乱。我父母都阳了。我还是一个人住在乡下。六月删了我的那个女生又把我加回来了，得知她那边的变化我挺惊讶的。我们聊了聊，我决定去看她。我和另一个人的第一次性经历结果一团糟。低血糖/受惊等等让我没法集中注意力，我慌了。那个女生连夜离开了，而且决定永远离开。在那一刻，我决定要重新找回我的健康和自信。完成那些三年前就该完成的事。

2023年的期待

  1. 健康（身体和心理）
    • 体重保持在75kg以下
    • 重新练回肌肉
    • 读书，和新的人聊天
    • 保持我的Tinder资料活跃
  2. GRE和托福（如果还有时间的话再加上CFA）
  3. 申请研究生
  4. 搬回芬兰（或者至少是欧洲）
  5. 申请香港人才计划
  6. 继续练习吉他solo和节奏（我觉得我应该能弹kfir oachion的曲子了）
  7. 学一些音乐制作